I Thought I Understood Jesus

I've built my fifty years of life on a wrong understanding of Jesus
Turning back the clock and fixing that makes me anxious

I thought the way was music and lights

But now I think it's about life on life

I thought the way was a building rising high above

But now I think it's building up people in love

I thought the way was being color blind

But now I think it's empathy for the left behind

I thought the way was articulate LBTQ shame

But now I think shame never made anybody less gay

I thought the way was just hearing Jesus

But now I think i must be hearing his children too

I thought the way was theological certainty

But now I'm certain I need diverse opinions cuz I get a lot wrong

I thought the way was reading the Bible like a divine McMillan text book

But now I think it needs a new better look

I lost my home when the white American evangelical model no longer made sense to me.

It left me with nothing but Jesus.